So far this year has been all about embracing my creative side. I had been suppressing it for so long, now all I want to do is make, make, make. One of my goals going into the new year was to create something new each week, dresses, skirts, pants, tops, purses, or even upcyling an old pair of shoes. When I set this goal, I thought it would be a piece of cake, after all, I've made swimsuits, dresses, and a bunch of other pieces in the span of 24 hours.
Not gonna lie, producing hasn't been as easy as I thought. Between my work schedule (which includes a bunch of high intensity fitness classes), my bills, and even my sometimes pessimistic thoughts, I've really struggled to meet my goal. I should also blame the fact that I'm constantly tip-toeing the line between lazy and productive, sometimes not even finishing things I've started. So basically...
I'm holding myself back!
I have to change my thoughts, I have to eat better so I can actually recover and regenerate after teaching and training, I have to prioritize, and I have to stop taking so many naps. I'm constantly scrolling my Instagram feed, trying to convince myself that I'm searching for inspiration when in reality I'm just watching other people glow up and hoping for similar opportunities to fall into my lap. I have to be serious about meeting my goals and stop claiming that I'm resting in the name of self care. I have to let my freak flag fly and...
Okay, now I'm just doing too much. I think you get it.
Going forward, I would love to produce one new thing each week. It can really be anything, as long as I'm creating. I'm so proud of all the work I've done so far, but I want to challenge myself to be better. I know I have the capacity to be more productive.
Recently, I made a faux fur coat that almost TOOK. ME. OUT. I mean, I cried, broke sweats, broke skin, and almost broke my sewing machine. It was by far the most challenging thing I've ever made. But I did it.
I surprise myself every time I overcome these types of challenges and it feels good. I want to feel like this everyday. Sometimes we try our hardest to avoid challenges and discomforts, but they're actually what we need to grow. So today I declare that I will challenge myself each week.
I challenge myself to make pieces I love.
I challenge myself to finish what I start.
I challenge myself to work on something each day, even when I want to watch television instead.
I challenge myself to loosen my grip on Social Media.
I challenge myself to find a healthy balance between self care and creating.
I challenge myself to maintain positive thoughts, no matter what!
If you're a creative and you've been experiencing a similar struggle, comment and let me know! Maybe we can hold each other accountable!